Been here before...

It's a familiar feeling. It rushes over me like a forceful wave, sending me backward into a sea of known emotions and passion. I've been here before; or at least I'd like to think I have been. It takes my breath away, yet it allows me to breathe easy for the first time in a long time. My mind is swimming in this sea, being tossed around like a football on the playing field. It comes face to face with fear several times, but manages to escape these encounters and continues to frolic among happiness and comfort. The feeling is indescribable. In fact, it's not even a feeling...it's more than that. 


I take a deep breath, acknowledging every bit of air that fills my lungs. Release. 


So here I sit, in my little home that I've created for myself. A candle burns within eyesight and the sound of the fan fills my ears. Darkness takes up the rest of my current environment, and I am totally satisfied with that. Its times like this that make me think. Who am I kidding; I am constantly thinking...sometimes too much. This was never a trait that I was ever ashamed of, however. It's these carefree moments that really get my mind traveling. It travels to both explored and unexplored realms of my being, spending more time in certain areas and less in others. I've found that if I let it stay too long in some of these areas, it only leads to the drowning of my dark brown eyes in floods of tears. Yet, if I allow my mind to wander too far into the desirable areas, it faces potential disappointment and risks being wounded. Again. 


For now I let it wander, as I usually do. It's possible I will let it wander until it's time to rest and put an end to this beautiful day I've had. By that time my mind will be ready to shut down and prepare for whatever tomorrow may bring. 


A familiar feeling deserves a familiar song: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8w0NUYIoDm4

And a desired destination to dream about: